I miss my best friends! That’s all feel that I can express now. I really miss him. Enough to die, maybe. He is such an amazing friend that I ever had! Just know him as Daniel. We had known each other since 3 years old. He is my father’s friends son, Uncle Ahmad. We always be together. We went to the same primary and secondary school. Even now we studied at the same university. The special about him that made me miss was he know how to take care of me. He like to pamper me and always be there when I need an ear. What I can conclude was he is the person that I can count on. Nobody knows that I exactly had been falling in love with him. Maybe this is ridiculous but I start realize this feeling when I’m in form 4. From form 4 until now I just keep this feeling secretly because I know he love me as a friends. But, this pure feeling no one can guess it . I just hope that one day he will now. Everything has changed. Because of one girl, he never care about me anymore. This started since third year we in university. I still remember on 3May he told me that he had fallen in love with Amelia, one of our friend. On that time , I did not know how to express my feeling. What I can told he was so happy and I never saw his happy face like that. Only I know, I will continue to support him eventhough my heart was bleeding. After the confession, he started to forget me. He ate together with Amelia, hang out and everything that he did , Amelia must be there. Until I felt that Amelia had stole my spot. Huh, so pitiful! On one of our friend’s birthday, Khateejah, we hang out together for celebrate it. I very shocked when saw how romantic he treated Amelia. He buy a food for her, when Amelia want a tissue, he got for her, and what I never expect he will did when he accompanied Amelia went to toilet. How pitiful I that time. After that, I try to forget him but I know I can’t. One day, my girlfriend and I hang out together. Coincidentally, we bumped into Amelia with a guy. But the worst thing, the guy was not Daniel. Amelia with that guy was really get along with their chemistry.They even holding hand, hugging together and even kissing. How shocked we all that time! I tried to call Daniel to ask where Amelia exactly. Daniel told me that Amelia had hang out with her sister. I almost want to cry when know that Amelia had lied to him. All of my friend asked me to tell to Daniel. They said that I only the suitable person to tell him. All of our friend don’t want Daniel to be played by Amelia because all of us know that Daniel really loved Amelia. Okay, so I decided to tell him on our end year party. On that party, I saw Daniel always stay by her side. How cruel Amelia for playing with my best friends feeling. Then I grabbed him near to the swimming pool to talk about Amelia. I started told everything to Daniel and what I never thought was he slapped me in front of all our friend. I really shocked and started crying. All my girlfriend back up me and explain to him back. But such a waste Amelia know how to pretend and back up herself. She crying and told Daniel that I jealous for her. I did not know how to back up myself and for the first time Daniel asked me to forget him because he wanted to erase me from his life. I never saw his face that full of hated . after that , he grabbed Amelia and kissed she in front of us then they leave together. Khateejah grabbed my arm and bring me back home because I seemed lost that time. On that night, alone in my room, for the first time I really hate him. Hate my own best friends. I hate Daniel! I cried a lot that night and still hope that all of this was just a bad dream. See, I’m totally cannot erase him! Two weeks after that day, I never saw Daniel anymore. Then I had been offered to further study in one of the university in Korea. I did not take time so long and started to prepare , then I went to Korea. None of my friend know about this except Khateejah. After two years in Korea, Khateejah emailed me that they want to do a reunion. I didn’t know want to join or not but I never once joined them since they had did a reunion two times. Many reason I gave to her but she still keep force me. Then she said if I joined them, I will know something important that they could not keep anymore. So, I curious about that and decided to join them. On that reunion, I decided to be the last person to come. I did not know why. When I arrived, I rushed to saw all my friend. We hugging together, talking and all my misses to them had released. Unfortunately, I did not saw Daniel. I asked Khateejah about him and suddenly everyone in my round table keep silent and stared at me. I felt weird and asked them again. Hamka said that he did not came. He will never came anymore. I don’t understand what he tried to talk and asked explaination from him. Hamka gave me a letter and asked me to read it. From that letter, I know Daniel wrote it. From that letter also I known that Daniel had passed away one year ago. I crying that time and cannot believe all that. Then , they decided to take me to his grave. I cannot stand on my leg when I saw at grave stone wrote Mohd. Daniel bin Amzah. I cannot express my feeling and I felt like my world was dark. I read again his letter and its written “ Babe, I’m sorry for do such a cruel thing to you. I don’t know why willing to slap you, erase you and you know I never can erase you. Everyday I want to see you but I ashamed. You are the precious thing He gave to me. I know that maybe when you read this you will cry, hahaha, don’t cry ah, you look so bad! One again, I’m sorry, really sorry, I know that you cannot live without me. Sorry babe, I had to leave you. For your information, I had been suffered to heart cancer since third year in university. I don’t want you to know, so I just use Amelia as actress to make you hate me. Sorry once again, I just don’t want you to share this pain. I hope you can understand. Be happy in your life. Remember our plan to build an orphanage. Okay! Take care of yourself because after this the person that always take care of you has gone. One thing, I love you! I know that you love me…. Just I don’t want you to be hurt when I leave you as your boyfriend. Forgive me dear, and I hope you will never forget me. Bye babe, you are the best present that I have! “ Now, 2011, three years Daniel had leave me. Now, I had build an orphanage special for him. I’m happy with my life and Amelia also had got his happiness with guy that I saw. I had thanked to her for help Daniel. However, Daniel still the first and only person in my heart. I never forget him. I hope that one day Allah will give me a person that similar with Daniel so I can release my misses to him. For me, some love lasts a lifetime. But true love last forever! # it just a story ! ^_^ .

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